cayden and corgi.
why all starts from C. so unfair.
we're gonna have Js! ):

sometimes, at my own free time.
i'll start thinking about us.
we both have sacrificed a lot of things
and people to be together.
we've come to a stage whereby it doesnt
matter who does more or
who did less for the other half.
that's how our relationship is like.
uncalculative. i like it that way.
we are trapped within the plan right now.
"trapped" sounds bad.
i think "bounded" would be a better word.
the "plan" is kinda like our goal.
our future that we want to work towards.
everything else would have to give way to
the "plan" right now.
i remembered you once asked me
"aren't you taking too big a risk?"
it is a big risk indeed. but its a risk worth taking.
because its a risk i know that would
involve my eternal happiness.
and my happiness is nothing without you.
you are my world. my life.

whenever i wake up from sleep at home,
i always wished you could be the first person
i see next to me.
because waking up alone is shitty.
i can imagine 10 years from now,
cayden will be running to our rooms in the
morning, pulling at our sheets and go
"mummy, daddy its time to wake up!"
then he'll crawl in between us to give us
both a kiss on our cheeks and we would
return him with a kiss on each side of his.
then we would lie there for a few more minutes
to feel the happiness in our hearts.
i cant help but smile to myself right now.
our baby boy, cayden.
his birth would signify that our plan has
succeeded and all our sacrifices are worthwhile.
his birth would mean that we are complete.


/cayden will ride on our poor corgi
and corgi will head butt cayden. (: